I have always been fascinated with the supernatural, especially ghosts.  They show up in the best stories, from Hamlet to The Shining to Battlestar Galactica to Beauty and the Beast, and have been used by the most amazing writers from Charles Dickens through Toni Morrison.

When I was young, I had the Scholastic Book of Ghosts, which you can read in its entirety here. (Thanks internet!)   I paged through it a hundred times when I was a kid, learning about ghost pirates and demon dogs, doppelgangers, haunted battlefields and sacred burials.

We all realize, as we get older, that haunting can take on many forms, and that the restless dead have nothing on the words and memories we each carry with us.  A slamming cupboard, a garden decoration, an innocent word, can cause flashbacks as frightening any phantom.   If we are lucky, psychologists, therapists, and friends can be our real-life ghost hunters.

Suffering, as Vincent said in the pilot, “. . . will make you stronger,” and it can . . . eventually, with the right type of support, but suffering can also make a person brittle.  Trauma can fuel addiction, end friendships, end careers, break up marriages.  If you are at the end of your rope, if you are hurting, if you need help, please call the Crisis Hotline – (775) 784-8090 or 1 (800) 273-8255

Catherine is haunted by what she has endured.  And now, without further ado, Home: Chapter 14.




In the middle of an emergency, do you know what you would do?

No, neither do I.

I’ve recently been to Birth Emergencies Skills Training, (if you are a midwife or birth assistant it is WORTH the money!)  Birth is usually fine, but every once in awhile there is an emergency, something you NEVER want to happen, but out of the hospital, the midwife has to know what to do.  I went to BEST training to get ready for emergencies, because they will happen, and I have to know I’ll be ready.

In 11th grade, I read A Handmaid’s Tale, and from then on, I have always wondered what I would do if I found myself in Offred’s shoes. Could I shut myself down and stay quiet in hopes saving my child?  I’d like to think I could, but after watching the first episode of the Netflix series, I’m not so certain.

Dystopian fiction allows you to wonder what you would do when the worst happens.

If you are looking for some dystopian fiction for some light summer reading, you can check out Cosmo’s “12 Dystopian Books You Should Read if You Like The Handmaid’s Tale.”

Catherine is living her own dystopian nightmare and is trying to figure out how and when to keep her secrets.  She’s trying to figure out what to do when everyday seems to be an emergency.

I hope you enjoy the chapter.

And now, without further ado, Home: Chapter 13

Finish What You Started, Human

Hi all!

It has been a long time since I last posted a chapter.  I know a lot of people think I will never finish, but Home won’t let me stop.  It’s in my head, even if I don’t know everything that will happen, I do know that the story MUST happen.  I got delayed, not defeated.

I’ve been thinking of Hayao Miyazaki, the famous writer, director, animator.  He is famous for starting his films before knowing the ending.  I could NEVER do that, but he did create Spirited Away, one of my most favorite films, and there is something to be said for discovery while creating.  It’s a treat to allow the story to tell you what must happen.

For instance, when I started Union, I didn’t think one of my favorite characters along the narrative would be a 3rd season throw-away villain.

Stories unfold, and I promise, I’m working to keep this one unfolding.

I also promise another thing, the next chapter will be up in two weeks.

In the meantime, if you haven’t seen Spirited Away, you should.  It is beautiful, truthful, exciting, and atmospheric.


Now, without further ado, Home: Chapter 12. 


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Conzine 2017


Dear True-Believers,

It’s been way too long.  I don’t have a post to Home yet, but it is getting worked on between births and studying for the NARM (North American Registry of Midwives) exam, (and, you know, family of five stuff.)  I wouldn’t have blogged, except that I wanted to make sure everyone knew about the the San Diego Conzine 2017.   Its full of lots of fanfic and hey, proceeds go to charity!

I did manage to steal some time to submit a story to the Conzine called “Spirit”, and it’s smutty, yinz!  🙂

You only have until June 1st to order Con merchandise.  Again, it’s for charity, and I happen to think charity and Beauty and the Beast are a winning combination!  😉

Here is the Link to the Con 2017 Merchandise

And here is the link to the Con information, in case you are able to make it!!  I wish I could soooooo much, but too many babies to help with this year…

I’ll see you all online soon!

Karen 🙂

A Happy Life

How can one live “A Happy Life”?

If you are Facebooker, like I am, you’ve probably seen the videos and articles on happiness, “How To Be Happy!”  “7 Habits of Happy People” “What is Happiness?”

I’ve read them.  I’ve also read All Joy and No Fun, about how parenting changes people and how it brings happiness, even when the day-to-day slog can be tough.

Little did I know, when writing this (very brief) chapter of Home, that it would center on happiness, but looking back, that’s what we are trying to find, right?  What is, “happily ever after”?.

You can watch the Robert Waldinger talk about what they learned about happiness from the 75 year Adult Development study.  It is fascinating, and I know Vincent and Catherine would agree with him.

I would love to hear what you all think happiness is all about.

But now, without further ado, Home: Chapter 11 




lace curtains

Writing … those types of scenes … isn’t the easiest thing for me.

The Catholic-school-girl-who-wanted-to-be-a-nun-until-she-was-fourteen part of me wants to put her head in the sand and just mumble her way through.  The doula/midwife part of me wants to talk about sex over coffee.  And the writer part of me just wants it all to play out well.

I have always enjoyed sex scenes, (I may have been pure, but not THAT pure,) but, I hope I’m at least a little discerning about it.  The best ones, I believe, are about love.  As my mama used to say, “Sex without love, darling, is just plumbing.”  The gauzy scenes, as Carole from Imagine That likes to term them, (isn’t that the perfect name?) should be fulfilling to the spirit of the story.  The ones I remember most weren’t throw away, but somehow integral to the plot, like in Stephen R. Donaldson’s The Mirror of Her Dreams / A Man Rides Through.  It said almost nothing about the hero and heroine inserting tab A in slot B, but it was sweet and truthful, especially since their first try didn’t work.

In her  Ten Top Tips for Writing Sex Scenes, Emma Darwin explains that, “Sex is Dialogue” and that it should always advance the story in some way.  I completely agree. (Go ahead and read the whole article.  It’s full of good insight on romance and was extremely helpful when I thought this chapter would never get written. )

I hope this chapter is fulfilling to the spirit of this story.  I’m going to let you decide, so without further ado, Home: Chapter 10.




New Characters

Holy crap, here we are at something I dread — creating a new character.  I don’t do it too often because, A., you want Catherine and Vincent.  I get that, in spades.  Not many fanfic writers can weave in new people that are compelling.  Carole’s The Iron Behind the Velvet characters are my favorite exception.    B., Introducing new characters feels like I am floundering in an uncertain universe with no parameters.  The show sketches Catherine, Vincent, Father, Mouse, Jamie, etc. for us.   When writing a new person, it feels like I’m trying to find him or her with no idea what that person could look like.


D.C., the people that brought you Batman, The Joker, Wonder Woman, Supergirl, and the Big-Blue-Boy-Scout, (Superman), had this wonderful role playing game that contained the best character generator I have ever used. Each character had motivation – Thirst for justice (Batman), madness (Two-Face), thrill-seeking (Green Arrow).  The gamemakers also gave points for flaws – obsession (Batman, again),  disabling fears (Martian Manhunter’s fear of fire), and so on.  It was really a great game and a fantastic lesson in character development.

I talked a little before about hating Mary Sues, so I am introducing you to Marc Morrissey and Frank Dunn with a lot of trepidation, but with the firm reassurance that I have tried to make them as real as I know how. I promise they are just a part of the story, not the story.  Chapter 10 will be back with our beloved couple again.

So, without further ado, Home: Chapter 9